Saturday, May 20, 2006
[*$0n.G$*] ...this week ... was one of the most tiring week of my entire life ... and it flew past me just by a wink of an eye ... well ... i'm so tired now ... and i feel like i'm gonna die lar ... so tired ... no energy for anything at all and all i want to do is sleep ... haha ... yup ... it's like ... i spent more than 12 hours in school everyday except friday ... and i'm totally burnt out ... i never knew JC life was gonna be this tough ... i never could have comprehend it ... till now ...
a lot has happened to me this week ... well ... more like stress is overcoming me this week ... haha ... yup ... so ... on monday i was still as sick as ever ... i totally could not sing ... but you see there was choir practice and i wanted to go ... so in the end ... i went but i sat out with jasmine and hector ... then we had the small group practice and HE said that we had the responsibility of getting well by wednesday ... it's like i want to fall sick like that ... so unreasonable ... i can't just like tell my body to get well and it'll get well right ? so i was very unhappy ...
yup ... the whole week was very tiring ... reached home practically at 8 ++ p.m. everyday ... bathe and eat my dinner ... it was 9 ++ p.m. already ... no time to do homework and study ... so tired and sleepy ... yup ...
so this carried on for the whole week except on friday where we had the LUNCHTIME concert which not everyone could go ... but it was good ... for CJC choir's current standard ... yup ... we are indeed capable of doing better ... but it is a slow process not an overnight one... so we must work hard towards it and have NO REGRETS ... yup ...
i'm pretty much tired of many things in my life ... i just need a break from everything ... cos i'm seriously very stress ... at times ... i just wanna cry all my stress or scream all my stress away ...
i would have crumbled
but God gave me the strength that i needed
and never let me go
even though at times i'd forgotten Him so ...
my heart knows no longer
how much more i can take
but You stood beside me
giving me all that i needed
i wish i was stronger
but no matter how strong
i still need God
my life is what i'm not expecting it to be
stress , work , busy-ness
i hoped for breaks for sleeps everyday
but i know You're there
always watching over me
and loving me
it seems that it's only when we're weak ... that we start relying in God ... when we're alright ... we just cast Him aside ... it's part of our human nature and it's hard to change ... how sorry i am for taking God for granted again ...
well ... that's all for this week ...
love,
cheryn ...
posted at 5/20/2006 05:56:00 pm
